THE LABYRINTH

         

 

Written by BlancaCEP                                                                                                                      |   MARS 2014

 

 

 

 

 

Anguish, anxiety and fear that leaves a bitter taste in your mouth and your mind said why did I fail? Why me? I just wanted to be happy. It is difficult to give up our wishes then the time passes and nothing is resolved; the manipulation and abuse where was lose the respect and there is not output so I questioned to myself which is the path? Where I should go then I just know that you are in front of the logic in where I can see me that I'm begging something that is not for me that does not suit me who tortures me and do much harm. Indeed each of these paths was build with the lies of my imagination.

 

The reality, there was nothing everything built on lands that was not ideal. Thus it always was moving until I understood it and I started to realise that there was nothing so It was just a mirage that moved away of myself where was destroying the truth of mine (myself, my achievements) as forget myself but is this ego and wounded pride that does not want to see this truth therefore there is just excuses when I know that only me could find the solution so I must think about it so I must be brave to face it.

 

There are not guilty that is only things misunderstandings of one mind enclosed in a labyrinth with paths, crossroads of fears and excuses that I cannot resist so It is sweet or bitter where I leave myself down and don’t get up or I shake myself and get out of this awful circle where I am now.

 

Difficult moments where there does not a ray of light only these instants of deep satisfactions that fill the gap of those temporaries but again is back these moments of bitter disappointment for not understanding and I cannot find the way to go out of this situation.

 

The envy and hatred take possession of the mind starting to sink it into a dangerous depression so where should continue desperately I look for without finding the solution of this pain and discomfort… Why it had to be in this way? How can I rescue me? Again this anxiety takes over my whole being, my tears and fears flow in the nausea that comes to my mouth that are hardening my senses with temporary denial however in this deep struggle to free myself of forget that person and I can start a new life where the love to myself show me how beautiful I am and what I can give to people.

 

If I respect and love myself, my self-esteem will begin to improve. This is a stage that had to live also made me mature and so this growth is a victory rather than a defeat. Usually the changes seem difficult but those are necessaries for our being therefore we must learn to live alone, enjoy the solitude. Every person born of a couple but alone where certainly society and the environment are shaping us sometimes with hard situations or empty feelings however there are always inputs and outputs that you sow that will be collected that you give that will be received It is only the measure life from justice and inevitably when we do not remember that we paid with the things that we deserve.

 

None other than nothing therefore you have to evolve with the world trying to make changes in ourselves and do not allow that this affect or hurt us so much. At the end of the day we are all united in the same being where each person have a bit of all us doesn’t matter race or even the social status. We all have the feeling of fear that relentlessly as consequence produce certain ailments in the body increases and decreases particularly when we do not know what we want until where we want to go and if it will be fine.

 

We need get approval from our environment so we look at it and after might we change our feelings for something that we think impossible but we will be changed. The behaviours are responsible for balance life and at some point we think that we will not get that acceptation of change. The frightening or weakness to take that decision to leave something o somebody that is causing pain or destruction of our being. However, there always is a force inside us which shows the correct solution and help to support that storms we had passing in some moments of the life. Therefore you just have to believe, have faith that everything happened for a reason that just we will understand with the time. All the tide brings good things and a new smile going back.

 

Love everything and everyone even the people that do not share the same ideas to accept them and also respect to them in the same way that the universe will give us. Everything we really need and we will be happy for a long while it go back and change that thing that we should.

 

Life is passion, pain, love, desires, joys and sorrows that make us feel truly alive amid the changing universe of our own desire. And finally the wait comes to an end without any manipulation is only what must be done right or wrong and the result will always be compiled in our life itself as genes, heredity and culture forming within us the balance of our life can only be achieved if there is balance between feelings, physical body and economic stability, these three aspects will be constant alignment to obtain a measure according to the need of every being.

 

 

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STORIES FROM MY MOTHER

Write by BlancaCeP.

Translater MariaBotCh

 

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