Obsessed by someone

          That feeling that destroys the integrity and self-esteem by beggars of Love.

 

 

Write by BlancaCeP                                                                                              |NOVEMBRE 2013

 

 

I found him, I love him, and then again I was back to that woman absorbent and jealous which I was in the past struggling to get a person only mine. Without right to love anyone or play with anyone more just me so my mind and thoughts just followed him therefore no friends or girlfriends just a sickly hope that sometime he will call me or come and if not imagination begins to work creating assumptions that mental and physical harmful that obsession as consequence creates pains that do not exist, increases anxiety fear and self-esteem begins to lose its essence.
 
Only there "he" as if the gates of hell were opened where all is bad. See couples dancing together I remember when he was dancing and making her feel the most special person in the world, pleasuring and giving her the best but, when she listens his conversations by phone. She feels rage, furious that  doesn’t be her that perhaps he never could lover her and now the little time that spend together is to treat her bad. He just looks and tells her feel so sorry for her or simply feel forced with this relationship.
 
She sees him in love, sad with stress that desperately watching his watch looks like, he wants to leave. Also he suffers from another person while he mistreat also he is mistreated. Unfortunately, he is just a poor man who never knows love only the vices of this.
 
Women who demand crazy and unhealthy through physical relationships that lead him increasingly away from true love and there are no limits for him therefore he cannot be present because there is nobody asks the same phone and starts new history, to take her dancing , walking, expend and treat her like a queen and then charge it. The sneering, pouting whips are used to mistreat or maybe get away without doing much damage. Began with the warning, the first thing that says ' if you fall in love you  will lost ' . Only is matter of skin nothing else.  He is a charming, elegant, calm, polite person who does not fight with nobody who knows all the tricks of flattering who knows the things that likes to women and at the same time their weakness part of them.
 
The meaning of good life for him ‘everything must be new; the old things throw to the rubbish’. He does not like joke so cold and calculating mind. However, sometimes behaves like a child but knows very well manipulate his weaknesses. He always has money as well a lot of friends so he loves to be admired and respected for everyone.  Its slogans ' I am not anyone, I worth so much ' ' I do not let anyone humiliate I'm the best I’m owner of the world ' says he is very happy, he is proud, pays his debts. Although he doesn’t need to talk for offend. However, he is attractive for women that know him he is like to Coca -Cola addictive but, beware because he makes you see the beautiful world who make you feel so beautiful in the sweet way but after that time, you will be destroy in seconds using a macabre silence .
 
For him the women is a vulnerable thing  therefore their sons are for the most, sleeps with them , value them , admires them. He is very macho. However, sometimes your eyes cry without tears and looks in deep anguish. He likes to have sex with different women and when he sees a young woman just naked her with his eyes.
 
However, if you need him he comes running in alleged support. He employs cynicism when he discovered in some lie he just hidden saying to  her "do not be immature you act like a girl you were not like this before so remember this is an open relationship where there is no jealousy everyone is free to do what they want.”
 
Always first in everything he handles control of the situation that is willing to help but when he sees that it suits him. Believe in God however does not profess any religion who does not feel afraid almost of nothing just that he feels afraid , drinks and sleeps a lot. He doesn’t love anyone so just live for fun. Therefore nothing does on the week only spend his time drinks and sleeps with the women of turn. He share one night, a day and bye in his visits to them and tells that he has to travel a lot.
 
He doesn’t need money maybe is a pensioner or business enterprise, he feels the owner of the world because he never has lack of money. This is modern man who lives alone that takes advantage of the environment. He lives is a lie always looking weak women without character, goals and possessive feelings which always like to be victims.
 
At the end, this kind of modern gigolo finishes his life alone, ill and hated by the entire society.
The only person who can solve this obsession is yourself is the couple any third party so the person must be aware of the situation who must be strong, valued, understand that love is reciprocated if not it isn’t love. It is better to be alone than to live in a storm so learning to love yourself as a valuable person just after that, someone will come to your life, someone truly special as you are and for he or she You will be their great treasure.

 

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Write by BlancaCeP.

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